Some care.
Some are
interested.
Some try to
understand.
Some are two
of three, few are three of three.
Most are
one, or none.
Mostly none.
It’s just
recreation.
It’s just a
hobby.
How is work?
Where do you
live?
Are you
buying a house?
Girlfriend
or fiancée?
Are you
moving home?
Home? That’s
where I came from when I came here.
Oh.
But it
defines me. That’s who I am. And you really don’t care?
What consumes
most of my waking thoughts, and sometimes my dreams; it really makes no difference
to ninety- nine percent of the world.
Make that
ninety-nine point nine.
What I spend
all my free time doing.
What I spent
all my money on.
What I save
all my money for.
It doesn’t
seem matter to anyone.
Except me.
I realize it’s
not what I have done, but who I have become.
Failure doesn’t
crush me anymore.
I smile, and
dig deeper.
I look in
the mirror. I search them out. I find my
flaws.
I don’t become stronger by focusing on what I’m
good at.
I accept
myself, with my weaknesses.
I own them.
It hurts,
but the hurt is temporary.
I make those weak places strong.
I don’t let
fear lurk.
I admit it.
Verbally.
Often to the
people I’d like to impress.
Let go of
fear.
Commit.
I am humbled.
I have
nothing to prove.
When it doesn’t
matter, I am better. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Clearing my head with a cold run through the farmlands where I grew up, far from the mountains.
Intense thoughts well written, my friend! !
ReplyDeleteThanks Josh.
DeleteGreat words for sure, admit weaknesses, overcome and grow stronger. The weakest part of any of us is ourselves and human nature and the fear of failure. Thanks for sharing brother
ReplyDeleteFear of failure almost drove me out of climbing two years ago. Now failure has become my greatest strength. This sport is so athletic and cerebral at the same time. It's better than the best high.
DeleteThere is nothing like a good send and sending something new. I feel like I've lost my drive lately and I think it's because I haven't been challenging myself enough this year. Enjoy the holiday weekend brother
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